Yes i know that you all think i have fell off the face of the earth the truth is I have i am a MOM! The past 6 weeks have flown by. Grant is still working crazy hours and the kids have been sick it seems for weeks now. We found out that Isabella needs her tonsils out and that she has Thryoiditis- it means more doctors appointments and hopefully they will be able to get her feeling better.
I have a ton of pics to share from Ava’s first birthday-Jaxsons pinewood derby-(in which i made most of the car) Sophia’s birthday and more that i will post when i have more than 5 minutes
Just know i am here and that i am doing the best i can……………..
You know when life kicks you around and you think no one is listening? Well as usual i was proved wrong.
I have been struggling lately, Grant is working crazy hours so it just leaves me to pick up all the slack at home. The kids have been sick and since Ava was so sick a few weeks ago she won’t sleep in her bed anymore. So needless to say i am exhausted. The other day i was done. My emotions were raw and i broke down. I cried to my Heavenly Father and had a real and honest conversation with him-felt better after and had the strength to keep moving. Well yesterday was the first Sunday in about 3 weeks that we have been all healthy enough to go to church -so even though Grant worked all night i was determined to take the kids and go by myself. As soon as we sat down Bishop Watson came up to me and wanted to talk to me. I was scared not sure how i could handle a calling right now. but i went in with the 3 youngest who refused to let go of me.
He then spoke word for word of the conversation i had with Heavenly Father the week before. i couldn’t believe it. He helped me. But i just want you to know that our leaders are called of God and he is listening…….
I am sick to death of hearing about all these sports “heros” , movie and tv stars, politicians, you name it! that pretend to be rolemodels when they are acting like the gum stuck to my shoe! They think that they can get away with bad behavior because of who they are.
I am thankful that my boys and my girls have a wonderful example of what a real man is in their father. As for now i am sorry for all the wifes and children that are hurt by the “rolemodels” ego.
I will never forget yesterday trying to explain what a mistress is to Jaxson. thank you Tiger woods, i could have lived my whole life without that conversation.
Today marks the anniversary of the night that Grant and i got engaged. He told me to dress up and we went to Red Lobster (my fave) for dinner and then went on a walk around the temple looking at the lights-mind you it was beyond freezing but he insisted that we go for a walk- i will always be grateful that he did.
We had only known each other 31 days when we got engaged but we knew almost from the first date that it was meant to be.
I am not saying that everyday of the 13 years have been easy or fun-there has been tears, disagreements, and heartache but there has also been pure joy! He is my best friend and there is still no one i would choose to spend time with then him. He still chases me around the house and my heart still flutters when he kisses me. I will never know what i did to deserve someone who treats me as good as he does. He is loving, devoted, loyal and my eternal companion.
I love the saying i never said it was going to be easy, i only said it would be worth it.
Grant is defiantly worth it! So Happy Anniversary honey, thanks for asking me to spend eternity with you and thank you for our 5 amazing children. Thank you for holding me when i cry and for loving me when i am unloveable.
I love you.
Life has been so busy the past few days so here is my catch up
Sat- I am thankful for sisters! I have the best in the world!
helped Heidi and Jason start their move- it was great spending time with them and their beautiful family! I am thankful to be close enough to help.
Sun-I am thankful for seatbelts and suv’s!
my Hopie was rear-ended by a driver not paying attention on Sat-Thankfully she wasn’t hut worse-we all love her and would be lost without her
Mon-I am thankful for Modern Meds-
Today Hopie’s dad is having his first round of chemo- i am thankful to live in this time where we have things to help us. I would have never survived childbirth with Bella without it.
Today just like every other day!- I am thankful for my Mom!!
She is such an amazing woman. She is always there when i need her and even when i don’t. It’s true when you’re a kid you never really appreciate your parents and until i had my kids i never understood all the sacrifices she made for me. Thank you Mom for all you do and have done. I have this little joke i will call her on a especially bad day and thank her for letting me live this long because some days i don’t know who she did.
So thanks mom for letting me live this long and thanks for laughing with me more than you laugh at me.
I love you!!!!
Today i am thankful for my boys!
This morning while taking Bella to school she pointed to a boy “See that boy mom? yesterday he came up to me and said “Hey Sweetie.” and then i turned and ran.
I tell you i will be glad when it’s the other girls mom worried about my boys.
I am trying to turn a negative into a positive tonight-
One of the reasons i feel in love with my hubby is because of his work ethic-he is one of the most hard working men i know- he works crazy hours so that i am lucky enough to say home and raise our kids-for that i will be forever grateful.
It’s hard to be thankful during times like this-all the kids are in bed and my hubby is still hard at work-we all miss him- I pray things calm down so we can have some family time.
I thought this was a perfect pic- i feel like he is locked up there some times-
